Feeling Sorry for Myself

I have everything.  I have an amazing home, a job that offers challenges each and every day, a son who is so much fun and worth every breath in life.  But none of that means a darn thing without the love of your life.

I can't help to be sad and feel guilty.  There are so many who deserve to have a pity party, and I feel that I shouldn't be one of them.  My problem is far less significant.  But I can't help the way I feel.  I welcome change.   I love it.  I do NOT love it when that change effects my family.  I find stability and strength in my home life.  I love it, and would never give it up. 

Dave has been away for a week and a few days now.  He is out of town for work.  He leaves on Monday, and comes home on Thursday.   The thing is.....I close the store on Thursday, and then I open the store on Friday.  UGH!!  So, I don't see Dave until Friday evening.

The worst part is that Dave has Owen in the evening.  This is a rough time for Owen.  Poor guy is cranky with Dave.  I think I have him figured out, and I thought Dave did too.  I guess maybe Owen just wants mom.  The whole thing breaks my heart!!!!!!!!!!!  Not to mention puts more pressure and stress on us.

Owen is a good baby.  I am doing fine without Dave.  But, I miss him.  Two and two can be
 together, but unless they equal four, they are separate.

Probably 3 or 4 more weeks, and we'll be done.  Until the next job that takes him away. 

I guess I am fortunate to love so much it hurts.